
And he that takes not his cross, and follows after me, is not worthy of me. He that finds his life shall lose it: and he that loses his life for my sake shall find it. (Matt 10:38-39, KJ2000)
Have you ever wondered what it means to take up our own cross if we are to follow Jesus? Wasn’t Him suffering and dying on the cross enough? What does it mean to “find” our lives? How about losing our carnal lives that we might find our spiritual lives as we follow Jesus? This is what our personal lives of the way of the cross is all about.
One Sunday in a church meeting after suffering much rejection at the hands of the world and its Christians, I heard the Lord say to me “Why do you keep seeking the Living among the dead?” How often I have hoped to find “the right church” where the people are living out what we read in the Book of Acts and where the voice of the Holy Spirit in them is more important to obey than the intellectual admonition of the man behind the pulpit. I read that we are all a kingdom of priests and the Spirit gives each of us as members of Christ’s body something that must be shared for the whole body to manifest the fullness of Christ. We are called to be a loving family with Jesus as our brother with us all manifesting His love for one another. This shows the world who Jesus really is.
My search has taught me the meaning of what Jesus meant when He said that to be one of His disciples, we must take up our own crosses and follow Him. So what happened to Jesus as He lived out His life obeying the voice of His Father in the leading of the Holy Spirit within Him? He told the disciples what would happen to Him for obeying His Father.
Then He charged his disciples that they should tell no man that he was Jesus the Christ. From that time forth began Jesus to show unto his disciples, how that he must go unto Jerusalem, and suffer many things of the elders and chief priests and scribes, and be killed, and be raised again the third day. (Matt 16:20-21, KJ2000)
So as I pondered what it means to follow Jesus, I remembered what was said in the context of these words. Jesus asked them, “Who do men say that I am?” The disciples gave Him a variety of answers. Then He said,” Who do you say that I am?” Peter answered, “Thou art the Christ, the Son of the living God” and Jesus commended him. But it was after He told them that He was about to go up to Jerusalem and suffer and die that Peter was correcting Him saying, “Be it far from you Lord!” To this Jesus said, “I rebuke you Satan, for you desire the things of men and not the things of God.” There is an old saying, “Everyone wants to go to heaven, but nobody wants to die” and the disciples were of this mindset. They still had not received the Spirit of God which empowered them to be His witnesses of HIS kingdom.
Early in my walk with the Lord I came across the following verse where Paul prayed,
That I may know him, and the power of his resurrection, and the fellowship of his sufferings, being made conformable unto his death; (Phil 3:10, KJ2000)
In my enthusiasm for Christ I also prayed this as my own prayer. Little did I know what God was leading me into when He inspired that prayer. We all want to know the resurrection power of God, but what is “The fellowship of His sufferings?” Have you ever wondered why you never fit in this world and its people or even in your own earthly family? I had a totally dysfunctional family when I was growing up. My father was an alcoholic and my parents fought all the time. So, after I came to Christ and was filled with His Spirit in 1970, I found others who also who were one with Him. For the first time I knew the love of God among others who had come to Christ in that same wonderful revival that became known as “the Jesus Movement.” Many of them also came from broken families. We were not all perfect, but the love of God that was being poured out made us one. I couldn’t stay away from these precious saints. We were experiencing the family of God.
As time went on, the enemy came in and Paul’s warning to the elders of the church at Ephesus came to pass in our lives as well,
For I know this, that after my departing shall grievous wolves enter in among you, not sparing the flock. Also of your own selves shall men arise, speaking perverse things, to draw away disciples after them. Therefore watch, and remember, that by the space of three years I ceased not to warn everyone night and day with tears. (Acts 20:29-31, KJ2000)
The group that I was part of fell under the spell of one speaking smooth perverse things as he drew away disciples after himself. Of coarse what he taught was well seasoned with lots of scriptures. Why does God let this happen? Why do we end up experiencing so much rejection among our fellow Christians while we just want to fit in and be part of a spiritual family? Could we be experiencing “the fellowship of HIS sufferings?”
At the close of His earthly ministry we read about Christ’s “triumphant” entry into Jerusalem riding on a donkey where the people cried out, “Hosanna to the son of David,” acknowledging that He was the Messiah. Oh, the fanfare and adulation! The disciples were thinking, “At last He is being given recognition and credit where credit is due and coming to Jerusalem to be its new King.” Some were also thinking, “I wonder what will be my position in His new earthly government? Will I be setting on His throne at His right hand?”
But Jesus blew the whole thing because He went straight to the temple and started turning over the money changers’ tables, turning the sacrificial doves and animals loose and making a mess out of the market place that had the blessing of the religious establishment. He told them, Is it not written, My house shall be called of all nations the house of prayer? but you have made it a den of thieves (Mark 11:17, KJ2000). Jesus was calling a spade a spade. The power brokers in the that temple system were not going to allow that!
And the scribes and chief priests heard it, and sought how they might destroy him: for they feared him, because all the people were astonished at his doctrine. (Mark 11:18, KJ2000)
Then gathered the chief priests and the Pharisees a council, and said, What do we? for this man does many miracles. If we let him thus alone, all men will believe on him: and the Romans shall come and take away both our place and nation. (John 11:47-48, KJ2000)
Therefore also it is contained in the scripture, Behold, I lay in Zion a chief cornerstone, elect, precious: and he that believes on him shall not be confounded. Unto you therefore who believe he is precious: but unto them who are disobedient, the stone which the builders rejected, the same is made the head of the corner, And, A stone of stumbling, and a rock of offense, even to them who stumble at the word, being disobedient: to which also they were appointed. (1Pet 2:6-8, KJ2000)
So, what does it mean to fellowship with Jesus in His sufferings? The more we are conformed into the image of Christ and value the things of the Spirit and seek out the people that He does, the more the enemy will attack us and the majority of these attacks will come from the religious establishment just as it was with Him! Remember, one of the accusations against Jesus was that He mingled among sinners and publicans.
After this he went out and saw a tax collector named Levi, sitting at the tax booth. And he said to him, “Follow me.”And leaving everything, he rose and followed him. And Levi made him a great feast in his house, and there was a large company of tax collectors and others reclining at table with them. And the Pharisees and their scribes grumbled at his disciples, saying, “Why do you eat and drink with tax collectors and sinners?”And Jesus answered them, “Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick. I have not come to call the righteous but sinners to repentance.” (Luke 5:27-32, ESV2011)
This is where we will enter into the fellowship of His sufferings. The more we value the things He does and seek out those who are lost, the more we will be despised by the so-called righteous ones.
Remember the word that I said unto you, The servant is not greater than his lord. If they have persecuted me, they will also persecute you; if they have kept my saying, they will keep yours also. But all these things will they do unto you for my name’s sake, because they know not him that sent me. (John 15:20-21, KJ2000)
The more I pondered the rejection we have suffered at that hands of religious people, the more the prophesies about Jesus became clear to me in a personal way. David prophesied,
Because for your sake I have borne reproach; shame has covered my face. I have become a stranger unto my brethren, and an alien unto my mother’s children. For the zeal of your house has eaten me up; and the reproaches of them that reproached you are fallen upon me. (Ps 69:7-9, KJ2000)
Taking up my cross and following Jesus has taken on a much deeper meaning as my wife and I have had to bear the burden of the lies about us and the rejection we have found among the religious establishment. Remember, Satan was a liar and murder from the very beginning and like Jesus told Peter, “You do not know what spirit you are of” this can sometimes apply to those who persecute us without cause.
And they that had laid hold on Jesus led him away to Caiaphas the high priest, where the scribes and the elders were assembled… Now the chief priests, and elders, and all the council, sought false witness against Jesus, to put him to death; But found none: yea, though many false witnesses came, yet found they none. At the last came two false witnesses, and said, This fellow said, I am able to destroy the temple of God, and to build it in three days. (Matt 26:57-61, KJ2000)
The temple was their power base and to speak against the temple or the High Priest was considered a death sentence. Yet, Jesus knew that that whole religious system was under the judgment of God and was about to end. As the disciples marveled at the temple buildings in Jerusalem, Jesus said, “See these buildings? Not one stone will be left upon another until it is all torn down.” By 70 AD the Roman armies came in and destroyed their temple and killed all the priests. Most of my experiences in today’s church system have taught me the meaning of taking up my cross and following Jesus.
I now see the wisdom of Jesus where I read,
But Jesus on his part did not entrust himself to them, because he knew all people and needed no one to bear witness about man, for he himself knew what was in man. (John 2:24-25, ESV2011)
I am reminded of Jesus’ words of warning to the disciples and us.
If the world hates you, you know that it hated me before it hated you. If you were of the world, the world would love its own: but because you are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hates you. Remember the word that I said unto you, The servant is not greater than his lord. If they have persecuted me, they will also persecute you; if they have kept my saying, they will keep yours also. But all these things will they do unto you for my name’s sake, because they know not him that sent me. If I had not come and spoken unto them, they would not have sin: but now they have no cover for their sin. He that hates me hates my Father also. If I had not done among them the works which no other man did, they would not have sin: but now have they both seen and hated both me and my Father. But this comes to pass, that the word might be fulfilled that is written in their law,
They hated me without a cause. (John 15:18-25, KJ2000)
So, my dear fellow saints when you are rejected and falsely accused it is all part of taking up the cross He has for us that humbles us, dealing with the natural man within us and offending the proud. Have faith and remember Christ’s words.But when they persecute you in this city, flee into another: for verily I say unto you, You shall not have gone over the cities of Israel, till the Son of man comes. The disciple is not above his teacher, nor the servant above his lord. It is enough for the disciple that he be as his teacher, and the servant as his lord. If they have called the master of the house Beelzebub, how much more shall they call them of his household? Fear them not therefore: for there is nothing covered, that shall not be revealed; and hid, that shall not be known. What I tell you in darkness, that speak in light: and what you hear in the ear, that preach upon the housetops. (Matt 10:23-27, KJ2000)
“Behold, I am sending you out as sheep in the midst of wolves, so be wise as serpents and innocent as doves. Beware of men, for they will deliver you over to courts and flog you in their synagogues, (Matt 10:16-17, ESV2011)
And finally what Peter wrote:
But if you suffer for righteousness’ sake, happy are you: and, Be not afraid of their terror, neither be troubled; But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts: and be ready always to give an answer to every man that asks you a reason of the hope that is in you with meekness and fear: Having a good conscience; that, whereas they speak evil of you, as of evildoers, they may be ashamed that falsely accuse your good behavior in Christ. (1Pet 3:14-16, KJ2000)








Now we have received not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, that we might understand the things freely given us by God. Notice that this world has a spirit operating in it as well. The word world is from the Greek word kosmos. It speaks of not only the earth, but Satan who is the god of this world, the spirit that is in it and rules over it. The New Testament uses the Greek word ge when speaking of this earthly planet upon which we live. The earth itself was created by God as good. It is Satan who has defiled it with his influence, power and presence. Notice that there are two realities for those who live on the earth. We are either under the power of the prince of the earth if we live as fleshly souls or we are under the influence of the Holy Spirit as spiritual men and women. Adam and Eve gave Satan an open door when they rebelled against God and this evil presence working on our minds and hearts has been with mankind ever since. Jesus said, “That which is born of the flesh is flesh, but that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.” Like Nicodemus to whom He was speaking who was born into Judaism, many Christians today have been raise up in the churches or convinced to attend them, but they are still fleshly people without any spiritual understanding. Being born of the Spirit is not optional in the Kingdom of God (see Romans 8:5-17).








